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down with one project 2 more to goo!!!! jia youu shahnaz... this wk alottttttt as in omos everybody asked me if im lonely without my sister around... welll i cant deny its a yes cause she sleeps besides me every night. even hussain asked me that... if i am lonely being in a car alone since my brother rarely goes out with mummy and daddy. but of course.. but i managed to cope to such changes.. harddd but true.. this whole yr alot things have changed... poly.. poly lifeee is wayyyy diff. from secondary school  and mi secondary school gooooodd frens which i missssss alot hahahah... sooo sad i cant go to athirahs open houseee -.- would have loveddd to seee her face.. since she noesss most of mi secrets... well not realli mi secrets but mi feelings.. hahha she vent to me i vent to her.. she vent to me about boys. which is good its good to vent to me about boys.. hahahaha cause its sooo funny.. how much girls like guys attention.. well im not saying i dun i likeeee but i dun likee cause to me its soo fake... but i must say wahh athirah finds me a guy expert hahahahha wthhhh     sooo nottt hahaha.. still learning... hahahaha.. reminds me of moses talk hahahaha can u imagine wat its like to live without a father.. well maybe... hahaha butt i was teasing benny its okkk i will be ur daddy hahaha but i think i will be a sugadaddy ahhahaha...  but benny seems fine without his father. n apparently germany during world war 1 didnt have a father. hence hitler became their fatherly figure hahah ahhhhh but but but waitttt nazi has come to the rescue........... cause im hitlers beloved i shall all of ur fathers ahhaha.. k nvmm doesnt make sense.. ohh n that beyonce song not bad - if i were a boyyyyy...... i tell u if i were a guy i would slap miself haahha cause i will be a damnn good looking boy.. yuck with a big bird eeeeeeee.... sick hahaahah i wouldnt want a bird though ahahah... got such thing mehh a guy without a dick hahahaha unless the boys a coward laa... billions in the worldddd!!!.. 

wahhh mi hand painn... i think i toreee somethinggg i cant carry heavy stuffs...  stupiddd nowadays i go to school like karang guni like that sooo many things to carry.. i now noe how it feeels to be an architectural student... its mmm tough... but i swear mi mock up was like sooo much better than all the rest laaa..  i dun see how it is too orientall......... shahnaz doesnt like rigid structures. its soooo, so straight. it should be soft n lightweight. n its  a structure not a building laa...... ohhh noooo shahnaz keeps gettin distracteddd.. thats veryyyyy bad.....seee now im blogging arghh... im supposed to do mi journal n finish ittt which is not evennnn done -.- kns.  wahhh yayyy a long weekend but i have to do mi final structure -.- haizz... soooo peninggg...................  im tired of bringing that big thing in the buss.... stupid auntie but her smallllllllllllllllllll.... bag on thee area to put luggages in the new buses she totally blocked me -.- ... somemore the thing takes up alot of spaceeeeeeeeeee...  hahahha n yeaa i showed mi father the 60 dollars text book haahhahaha sooooo heavy siaoo.. n to think i wanted to bring mi painting home.. nvmmm laa donate it to the poor. laa or jus throw it away....  wahh went to the beach with mi parents n yuck  stupid ahliens had to make out in front of me n mi parents horridly awkward hahahhaha but it seemed sooo passionate hahaha.. ...  soooo toooo passionate oreadyy..... eeeeee erase that frm mi eyes.n i ate ahhh shit y i eat... supposed to go walk no eatingg.. -.- haiyaa..... mmmmm n besides that im fine.. except wahhhhhhhhhh someone has a crush on me hahahhaha i dunnoe how i change in one day hahahaha i look the same as yesterday mr. hahahhaha but he is good looking but i taller than him n i think he is much older than me sooo then again.. tinch of excitement...  mm shall resume mi work.. ok then byebyee!!!!!.... oh yaaa n moses tok hahhaha get rid of the bad habits in with the new.. butt im still getting distracted wahhh bad badd hahaha now noooo more... -.- soooo naughtyyyyyyy shahnaz pinch ur asss hahahhahaha... k bye 

today's shahnaz's pile of work has gone up up up up!!! haizz.... y soo inefficient todaiii... i completed nothing none of the 3 things meant to be done.  its all half way half wayyy sooooo irritatingg.. stupid scrappp booooooook................... i have not done a 3d model before n plusss i dun even nooee the basics of doin a 3d model. -.- how am i supposed to do the 3d version i can vision it in mi head, buttt i cant fold ittttt.... i oways thot i was good with mi hands.... -.- . well and yes today is someonessss birthdayy.. i do not wish to mention his nameee starting from now he is nothing to me. I just cannot take it anymore... theres no need for u to acttt orr have another months of not toking... u noee y dun we jus not tok at all... dunnoe each other n move on... that seems to be the best option. hope is bleak.  i dun think even being friends is an option...... i did not make these harsh decisionss u did......... 

someday we'll y the balbalbalblablabla.. hahahahah that song is in mi head... actually im kinda writing this while changing hhhaha.. soo go figure. ahahha.. well im actually quite excited fror school to start hahahaha all the gossiping that veryone does.. dun deny it ahahha i like to listen ahhahaha to it thoughh....... even though i bettt u guys have gossiped about me too hahah... no hard feelings thoughh........... hmm colour n light seems ok i guess.. though they say its just shining lights hey not soo bad rite.. n fipdr somehting related to fashionnn  drawing the figures soo fun to add it to the portfolio. mmmmm i guess im excited n scared at the same timee.. but im continuosly telling miself fear will onli let u down n restrict u from doin ur best.. Shahnaz bee Fearlesss........................ i guess i oways worry... am i a worrier... i hope not i dun want to be one... nn guess wat shahnaz decided if she were to have a baby she wouldnt want a girl soo leceh. boy more funn....... i guess i like boys more than girls hahahah... but both still fine ahhaha.. mmm n wahhhhhhhh blooody hottt as in seriouslyyy blooodyyyy sweat n tears hot todai... even mi hair can dry soo fast hahah..  nn yeaaa this yrr alot of mi clothes are too big ahahah mi mum has to help me do some last minute taking in. mmmmmm other than that nothinggg gonna go eattt oh noooooooooo..... i dun wan to get fat.... nvm tonite gooooo shed 10 pounds hahahhaa... ehh i realise ahh all runners are like short hahahha.. ohhh nooo does running make u short  ohh shitt..................... nvmm nvmmmm i  apparently got a basketball i go play downstairs with mi dad then or badminton which onee i prefer badminton thoughhh...  okkkiesss........... someee kisses n hugs for u n u n u n u n u n u n u hahhaha wahhh shahnaz too famous oready hahahahahaha wtrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr la hhahahhaahha... im still an unknown.. 

lets continue again like nothing happened.. thats what everyone does............ but its not working hereeeee.......... like  arrrrr.... rite. Maybe jus close one eye....... i dunnoeeee but its definitely not workinggg.................. because i oways seem to be happy then upset afterwards. i dunnoe y just plain confused i guess.  n yeaa went to do some visiting soo quite tired.... watched pathetic exorcist. not scaryyyyyyyyyy at allllllll........ such a let down...   confused.. at times i have somethign to say but dunnoe how to say how i wish i sutinis sharp tongue.........       tooo nice or too demanding i dunnoe...........

yayy!!! shahnaz is actually happyyy!!!!!!! ahahaha........... she drank n "drive" haahaahah.. go figure. well i went rollerblading... u noe y im happyy...... causeeeeeeeeeeeeee..................... i dunnoe.... something different i guess.. though the thought of the new semester is frightening ... oh welll.... god noes hu will be in mi class.. n i realised im like the veryyy few pple having class in the morning =( wait wait change that to a happy face instead =D hhahahha must be optimistic... trying to hahah....  mmm relationship wise shahnaz is still very confused......  i guess.. i shall let time tell......... because im not one that will realli voice outttt wat i feel n think........ its a lil tooooooooo personall get uncomfyyyy........... had to go massage mi dad for awhile apparently very sick todai. haiyaaa now instead from happy left toooooooooo beingggg confused even more........................   oh welll byebyeeeee muackss..

OMG!!!! shock shock horror horror laaa...... i gained 2 kg laaaaaaaaaa.. during the holidays how is that possible omggg stupid hari raya all the longotng n kuih n cakee.............. haiyaaa.. if i dun eat i get forced to eat.. =(((((((((((....... mi goddddd i run run oso noo use ..... thats ittt how i wish i was allergic to wheat flour or something.. ohh come onn im an indiannnnnnnnnnnnn its mainly carbo diet... thats it im turning vegetarian....... n fishetarian.. yeaaaaaaa exactly.. god bless mee...   i wander wat mi um gonna cook for me tomorrow ask her to steam fish for mee.. ohh nooo i need mi rice... its tooooooooooooo damnn goood rice is addictive.. veryyyy addictive.... ahhhhhhhh. shitt................  wahhhh damnn saddd i had to get fatter damnn metabolism dun get matured yet.. n shahnaz realised something she looooks damnnn old toooooooo.............. i look like a 20 yr old.. zomggg. horrifying..... i need to take the dunnoe wat chemical to make me loook young i dunnoe wat starts with d yeaaa yeaa in tomatoes... i think.. oh wellll.... nnn damnn it shahnaz is short -.- as in seriouslyyy a girl one head taller than meee walked pass me todayyy n she is hott.. but old laa.. hahahahaa but she was wearing 2 inches. but still wahh loook soooooooooooo tallllllllllllllllll...... depressed i think runnign makes one shorter.... oh well i  think im still okay lookingg... but gotta looose weightt... im now 47 kg jeeez thankssssss de beaute... i think i need to get slimming treatments...  hahahaahha no laaa...

Shahnaz today is lefttttt totallllllllllllllllllyyyyyy speechlesss......... as in seriously.. SPEECHLESS!!!!!!!!!!! its not cause someonee pissed her off no one did... i dun even noeee how it feels to be pissed off anymore... cause ALLOTT of people have been childish around her... they thinkkkkkkkk i was born yesterday......... as in seriouslyyy... but wat was funnny though ruben think that his prank call is unknown he should have thanked god i wasnt mean to him infront of all of his friends.. i mean honestlyyy what scouting company works after office hours...... i would have called him a freaking despo but since it was in the midst offffff of mi grand aunts death.. i mean seriously laaa he should look into the mirror and get a shock of his life that he is damnn disgusting laaa............. hahahahhahaha stupid guyyyy.... 

todai i realli wanted to go vivo.. to eat the beef kuay teow soup damnn super nice..... but mi mum dun wan causeeeeeeeeeeee its at a hawker centre -.- wthhhh laaaaaaa if theres good food i will be there............ n forthermore sheee forced me to wait for her all the time the wholee morning.. n when i saw this gorgeous dress...... mi mumm jus said mmmmhow much is it. mm ok....  n that means i have to put it back its onli 108 la oh comee onn... its well priced not overly prices... thenn all the baju she pickthe baju all got the puffy puffy yuck laaa i dun wanna loook fatter ok.. like haloooo... i mean everyones wearing ruffles noww.. copy meee onli hahahhaha.. n the sun dress i wanted for soo long was just not meant to be.. oh well........ most of the sun dress loook damnn al cheapooooooo............ n i kinda have a sad realization that whatever im buying im being cheated one way or another. i have no patience to window shop i swear.. its super irritating to not get something... if i go out miself nvrmind laa cause i got no money. what can i by with 50 bucks. onli food.. but to buy clothes. where got unless u want those of the cheapest materials. maybe for guy clothes possible. but for girls clothes wat this fashion hahahha u gotta be kiddin me.. bugis street disgusting horrible place will nvr step in there ever again.. n wahh more n more retaliers are saying that their clothes are from korea hahahah but its obviously made innnnn china hahaha.. wats the big deallllll......irritating now im craving for the beef kway teow soup bigggggggggggggggg time hahahahaaha i wantttt!!!!!! i dun think i can last till morning.. ohh ya speaking about morninggg i got a stupid jab which i have been running away from stupiddd laa the needle soooooo bog how to not get scared hahahhaha.......  wahhh shahnaz wants to go for a holiday badlyyyyyyyyyy............. i got alone oso i dun mind hahaha (that baddddddd.......)

lohhhhhhhhhhh................ irritating word from mi maid... superrr irritating.......