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seriously if u didnt care y did u even bother telling me..all of those stuffs..
seriouslyy.. do u think ur darn hot that any girl will go for u..
ur jus sick man...
im completely over u.. i will still smile n say hi cause ur bday is coming..
n yeah during dinner time. i relaxed by watching the tyra banks show..
girls that are too nice.. i think thats me.. n girls that do not noe how to say no.. i think thats me too.. darn........ but now.. I AM NO LONGER A WALKING DOOR MAT... soo dream on lah...
im jus gonna concentrate on mi o levels.. n yeah .. thats it.. i flunged alllllllllllllll of mi tests.. ='( shit lah.. damn i got 4/25 for bio.. wooh. brilliant kid.. n i dun even noe about permutations n functions lahh. how to dooooooooo... i wasnt there during the lessons..haiz.. wasted mi time going to school todai. was dreadfully sick.. still mus go school. n yeah todai i came late.. baik ahh.. i like...

WOOH!! yesterday(friday) i fell sick.. soo sick.. mi tummy was way up to mi brain.. haha. well. yeah dissected the freaking frog.. poooor frog. i named it pien tai. almas told me not to name it or i will feel attached to it.. arini was soo rough. soo impatient.. if i were to do an operation i will take mi own time..n of course i will nvr operate.. nvr..
the frog was like soo sad.. it had to suffer.. like soo much.. arini shake the jug with the frog inside. with alot of chlorofoam.. yyuck..
the frog jus didnt wan to die.. poor thing..
soo arini grabbed the frog.. she piercied its hand n legs.. like it was jesus.. well the legs were spread out lah.. she pierved it like it was nothing.. omg..
n then i did the snipping part. no blood... thats y i did it.. i didnt dare touch the frog. gross.. i didnt dare.. n yeah arini n sutini did most of the stuff. arini did the most.. she mixied up the intestines n all. it was like a a variety of noodles all mixed up. like small kway teows n all.. gross.. the hear was still pumping. its not dead.... it can survive without its lungs. without its intestines.. n the shit was gross..arini squeezed it out.. gross.. poor thing. it had to suffer a slow death for the sake of science.. gross..

here are some occupations that i hate.:

1) surgeon/doctor..nurse (anything gotta do with blood)
2) scientist.(not interested)
3) lawyer (boring)
4) farmer (no wayy.. i will kill the plants)
5) n lots more..

here are some i like:
1) business
2) engineering
3) actress?? dunnoe lah..
4) teacher( not realli actually)

n yeah cause of priscilla now i have to suffer with a fringe problem. mi fringe soo short.. wat the hell is her problem.. sialah.. mind ur own business.. omg..
n yeah i got a1 oready for mi leaps.. dunn need to be vice- head actually.. hahaha.
cool man. tel her on tuesday.. i dun wanna be vice - head. jus wanna concentrate on mi studies.. seriouslyyy.. more focused nowadays....

k bye...

todai....... ended badlyy.. badly. thanx to almas hu anyhow says she likes ali.. scared ali... n now he thinks we are freaking stalkers.. but i did nothing. omg.. c lahh.. had 4 periods of muru. gettin sick of him.. realli man... i bet he was this bit to throwing his temper at me.. for not doin his work properly.. n saying im lazy. n yeah do u noe y mi day ended badly... ms zubaidah wans to tok to me again..lazy lah to meet her.. i be sure to wear ear plugs that day man.. omg. more f***ing lectures for a long time ago story that F***ing abraham doesnt wanna solve.. y.... i dunnoe.. she jus tells n tellls everybody... y.. cause she got big mouth.. maybe too many unused holes... sialah if it were to continue like this i think i would realli realli throw the badge to her lah.. pick on me for nothin man.. hey i do mi duty.. n how dare u say i still dun do mi duty.. wat... theres no evidence lah.. omg... acccusations... darn irritating ones.. onli irresponsible pple accuse others without evidence.. she thinks that she has soo much power.. that i think she is abusing it.. yah rite getting closer to the students... u are a disturbance.. a reali huge one.. u are soo suck up n arrogant lah.. n sadly the onli way i can impreesss her is by being suck up too... which i dun wan too cause its not me... to be one... oh yah todai derence sang to me again.. omg.. m i figure for him to sing toooo.. like all the time.. omg..... die die die..
this is the stupid part of the day....
its all because of u.......
y u nvr tok to me...
wen i get happy im bound to get disheartened again...
what goes around will come back around..

lovey dovey songg........ what goes around comes around.. f that bitch..

scared n lonely...................... do u realli want me...
its all because of u.. i wished u nvr told me...
soo now im hearing this voices in mi head..
now im wondering if i could trust it....

wat is it with all of these boys.. omg.. i nvr did.. tell mitran that i like him... i didnt say i like him.. i onli try to mm.... lighten up his moood.. n now its kinda irritating.. cause he calls me alot of times omg... gosh.. i barely noe u...... how can u like me if u dun noe me.. thats jus being a fool. jus be mi fren..
then then then.. i told amir...... to say to nitesh , joel n mitran.. n i dunnoe all of mm these other pple weird names came out.. harith. hu the hell is that.. telling everyone that i like nitesh.. yeah his cute... but still i dunnoe nitesh sooo... mm hmm.. that i shall think about it.. but in the end i still dunnoe him .. how can he like me... omg..
n i have a huge feeling that intellectually challenged pple tend to fall in love with me.. for example.. wen i went to the old folks home.. the person onli wanted me to sit beside him. he didnt want arini. nor sutini nor almas.. n all.. see see.. n next derence.. hahahha.. adorable person.. kept singing his own creation to me.. but it gets scary wen .. wenn..... he approaches me out of no where then suddenly sing.. yeahh.. yeahh..
then hisyam.. hisyams scary.. omg.. i swear.. omg.. i get soo freaked out..
soo in fact was it fate that i have to live this way.. n jus neglect mi feelings for somebody else.. hu im not sure..... im not realli dure at all likes me.. y cause he has betta choices. pple that noe him more.. n im sure there is someone that noes me alot too.. i jus wonder hu....????

"Never Gonna Leave Your Side"

I feel like a song without the words
A man without a soul
A bird without its wings
A heart without a home
I feel like a knight without a sword
The sky without the sun
cos you are the one

I feel like a ship beneath the waves
A child who's lost its way
A door without a key
A face without a name
I feel like a breath without the air
And every day's the same
since you've gone away

I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are no words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
yeah

and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
cos when I'm lying in your arms
I know I'm home

They tell me that a man can lose his mind
Living in the pain
Recalling times gone by
And crying in the rain
You know I've wasted half the time
And I'm on my knees again
'till you come to me
yeah

I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are no words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
yeah

and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
I lay my head against your heart
I know I'm home
I know I'm home
I know I'm home

and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
cos when I'm lying in your arms
I know I'm home

"Patience"

Just have a little patience
I'm still hurting from a love I lost
I'm feeling your frustration
Any minute all the pain will stop.

Just hold me close inside your arms tonight
Don't be too hard on my emotions.

[Chorus:]
'Cause I
Need time
My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while I'm still healing
Just try and have a little patience.

I really wanna start over again
I know you wanna be my salvation
The one that I can always depend.

I'll try to be strong
Believe me I'm trying to move on
It's complicated but understand me.

[Chorus]

'Cause the scars run so deep
It's been hard but I have to believe
Just have a little patience [x2]

[Chorus]

Have a little patience
My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while I’m still healing
Just try and have a little patience

seriously.... i realli m sooooo frustrated with everybody hus finding fault with me everytime.. i get all the naggings. left right centre.. for minor stuffs. n now.. im realli feeling very fucked up. problems seem to arise in the most unexpected areas. in school there are too many problems thats y i jus buat bodoh n jus keep quiet.. n jus looking troubled n uneasy..
thats all.. at home..... mi mum starts with the nagging. blablablablalabla.. omg... dun they noe i get it.. i get it.... omg... i dun need soo many naggings for 1 jus 1 lil' thing i did. n got mi hp confiscated. jus for this 1 thing..... it has brought me through hell man. n guesss wat for soo many days the problem is still not resolved. y... cause.. someone is being a bitch n not toking to me.. soo i shall act stupid.. n pretend... n PRETEND!!! yah thats her habit.. y cause she is super duper arrogant.. ok forget it. lemme play a song.... n watch the stars.. 3 in a row means aries belt i think i dunnoe but lemme gaze at it.. so that i wont feel troubled.

ok sooo todai.. i showed everybody mi white teeth. which are darn straight without mi darn braces.. sutini kept laughing at me.. cause she said i look like mi father.. finee.. n almas couldnt stand the fact that i look soo diff. but im still the same me... thats all that matters..
well actually todai i was obviously being a bitch to abraham. cold war... im not talking..... not talking at all.. i realised that if i dun tok i get questioned more..but.. i jus dun wanna answer her lah.. a waste of mi breath. y should i waste mi breath n saliva for a darn lady hu needs to resolve her own matters. shes living in the past.. while im living the present.. soo realli its good to hang out with smart i.t pple u get to learn soo many things by jus keeping quiet n listening to what they are talking about.. especially if u listen to edric talking about computers its like an alien language its very very interesting.. i jus noe a computer is a computer.. they noe the things in the computer.. but it tends to get boring.. if i listen too much. u noe i think almas is getting more lesbianny by the minute.. i need to save her.. from attaching too closee to me.. she had a dream bout me.. i bet.. in fact she thot me all the naughty stuffs. lol.. but i find it fascinating..
n soo i met urmilla todai. mi nerdy primary school frens hu i still remembered to be the smartest person alive. she cried wen she got 98/100. weirdo.. for maths lah.. shes a maths pro.. pro.. like hell. soo its no surprise shes from rgss.dun need to take o levels but thenn their t score mus be 2.8 n below to have more priviledges. wah lau.. im glad..... im not from that school phew.. n yeah yaseeer!!!! is in sec 5. hahahaha.. omg.. u have gotta be kiddin me.. sialah todai is like his 1st day of school. hahaha... unbelievable. impossible is nothing.....

ok u noe seriously i think this is mi bad luck season..im sooo sick n tired.. of seeing ms abrahams face n mdm kohs face... over n over again.. it is darn irritating. u noe im afraid i will jus blow... yeap.. if she toks to me too much i noe i will blow.. i m onli scared that i will do that.. if she pisses me off too much then obviously i willl blow.. take mi hp for no reason somemore idiot.... she nvr even inform me wen i can get it back lah.. darn innocent lah.. jus take out then kena... big time.. she needs to learn respect. she shouts at everybody in her way.. well too bad in life u cant get wat u want all the time.. in the world there are 2 most prominent noisy pple. the indians n the chinese (by mr muru) now i think its true.... cant she learnnnn to be a little more nice.. i noe lah its her job to be fierce.. but at least. for once dun tok n dun shout n jus buat bodoh u noe.. for once..learn to shut up!!
ok yeah.. i dun blame ka jie.. i blame miself for not having gone to the library..
but if hps are alloweed y she take mine.. its allowed wat n i nvr use sia... fag..
then todai yeahh.... on stage she shooed me away.. i was like finee..... seriously.. finee.. hope her death is soon awaiting her..(u noe theres this thing someone told me) those hu were bad wen young are the best wen old yy.. cause they learn... n i think she was the worst thats y she truned out that way. darn fag... wasted mi time.. wasted everyones time.. i came to school to study.. n learnn.. howeva.. i didnt wanna find fault. unlike her..
well soo yeap im gettin fired lah confirm oready... jus havent seen mdm koh to give the badge..
but howeva...
some people noticed im very different now. huh.. i didnt realise that.. actually chun ping realised that. told him not to close one eye. jus tell them... he said i improved alot.. lol.. but.. no use actually. gettin sacked oreadi.. sooo.. dun realli bother now..
jus be a naughty lil girl lah.. bu onli cares nothin bout her studies soo that she can go jc cause i dunnoe wat to do in life. i poly then maybe i take business or engineering.(which i have no interest in) i go india i can get 4 degrees in 4 years. hhahaha.. thats y if u take i.t it would be hard for u to compete with the indians. they have 4 degrees. u onli have 1. they are cheap n effective.. ah...
yeah todai taking out braces...
n i feel lost without mi hp. f that bitch...

OMG!!!!!! todai was horror.. hahaha.. well started well.. then skali....... after recess abraham call me... alamak.. u noe like everyday she calls me man.. but the thing is she blamed our class for no reason .. shu yuan repeated n she didnt noe says shes from 4d. hahah.. wat onli.. oh well yeah the big big big thing bout mi day was that wen i was in maths tuition.. im kinda freaked out.. ms abraham thinks im like her.. i remind ms abraham of her.. n im freaked out... firstly. wen she met with all the sec. 4s she said.... she was a runner last time.. n apparently an athlete. omg.. k.. next.. she said to before long long time ago.. that i should be a teacher.. n im like aha.. n now.. mi tuition teacher asked me where i wanna go poly or jc. i said dunnoe.. n he said....... i should be a teacher.. as its the CAREEER THAT SUITES ME MOST!! omg..... drop dead faint... y is that mi fate.. the reasons..
im charismatic.. hmmm.. not sure.. im bubbly..(bubbly teachers get bullied) n omg i believe in retribution.. even worst alamak.. hahahaha.. soo me a teacher.. i think i will be a bimbo teacher lah.. n i dun like being fierce.. i dun wanna be like ms abraham k. oh please.... i dun wanna scare pple.. n i cant be single for mi whole life.. thats like misery lah.. thats like a fear... a bigg fear.. but i obviously gave up on boys n relationships... cause it oways turn up to misery.. i dunnoe y.. but i end up being the cheated one..u noe gettin hurt all the time.. sux.. im sure athirah feels the same way.. but oh yah .. she loves everybody.
i dun share mi thoughts well i keep it to miself... which sometimes is a burden..
oh well k lah soooo long .. i write sia.. k then bye

ok new song.... that i like well i like the guitar part lah.. thats all..




well this song... love the guitar part too..

k next one... mmm love love it.. the one that i really love should listen to it..

mi. picts... with mi cuz.... lubs lubbs lubbs.. onli put bit by bit.. not a porn star... neither can i be.. jus seee pamela anderson. n me.. theres a huge different. smack infront of ur face hhaahhaha.. k k ..



this one was cool man... hahahaha.. action buay besar..


well we were falling..





k thats all others. mmmm. cannot lah... sorri lah.. shy lah.. shy lah... its in mi friendster private fotos

hahahaha.l.. wahh u alll... wen u read mi blogg.. heres a warning.... its full of vulgarities.. n porn.hahahhahhaha.. k no lah.. well vulgarities yeah. n yeah.... i wanted to put mi private fotos here... but now i cant... wasted.. well pls dun mistaken me to be depressed. imnot im fine.. its jus that this place i can say alll the vulgarities.soo doo bare with me... i will try to be gentle....but gentle doesnt mean sleeping onli i tomorrow got acception..cause i gotta get mi money back. from that person........haiya haiya... ok next time lah i put mi private fotos. those hu wanna see go n seeemi account from tomorrow nite onwards. :D

u noe i have learnt something from this. never be too kind. i wont do anything at all.. anymore... unless its someone i trust lah...
the worst part is.. the person said his not in the mood.. woah.. darn .. toooot.. u noe... obviously. sob. yeap. soo nvm im cool.. monday.. seriously.. not funny u noe... I hate guys that onli makes use of girls n flirt n flirt n flirt... yap yap.. n then dump u away.. yeap yeap.. n sadly that is wat oways happens to me...
oh well. n not bothering about anybody else hu think that im jus someone that u can play with.. well u can.. but.. remember... im not someone.. that can stand alot of demands. i face it todai.. i feel like a looser lah. .. cause it pisses me off man.. seriously i think im cursed. guys that i like turn out to hurt me
they misuse me or jus darn rite dun care bout me.

haiz...
letting mi problems fly. n finding for a place to rest mi head n mi thoughts n mi emotions for ones.. its like everybodys shooting all kind of things to me.. but im letting mi problems fly...
sooooooooooooo........ im actually happy... dun worri..

أنا أحبّ أنت. أنت [فوك] شخص.
سلويندر] حالة حبّ يدوم [شهنز] [.ثيس] دائما. الوعد لأبديّ. أنا مثيرة سيدة [أور] فقط فتى جميلة وأنا كثير على نحو أفضل.
أنا أجد هذا جدّا غريبة. أنا أشعر يستعمل ويشعر أنا مثل [إيم] يتمّ [توو موش]. إن [أنلي] واحد ما يستطيع ساعدتني. أنا يستطيع لا يعتمد على أسرتي. بما أنّ هم سيساندونني غير أنّ سيكون هم [ديسّبوينتد] في ي.
oh i like ali from our school. told him to join soccer rite away. i think i like arab boys. I THINK!!!i like mi arab cuz. but he looks soo much older. hehehe...
no vulgarities here..................

ok todai was a weird fucked up day lah.. hate sec. 4 mus be extra guai. n focus like hell. darn freaked out of the ppr. scared man.. well... im obviously prepared. to make things worst. i still have to settle mi school matters. which is basically a waste of time as i noe all the thing the persons gonna tell me n the person is gonna make it long-winded. darn fucker.. i bet if she were to fuck the world.. oh boy.. hahahhhahaha.. everyguy would die... that ham.. well k 3rd day of school feel stressed up oready. n yeah todais the darn cca fair. i look sooo darn rite innocent lah in the blue dress.. holdy innocent barbie doll as supposedly called. -.- embarrasing. well. n guess wat.. having cuzs in the school takes away privacy. im serious man. mi GRANDUNCLE n GRANDAUNT came. n yeah soo did mi aunts and all.. wth. man.. no privacy. they saw me in the "angelic" girly girly costume.hahaha.. yux. but it was fun.. it was a reali head turner. ms abraham stared for a very long time orite. almas was scared like hell.. she turned n look at double A instead. idiot sia she.. cause she dun wanna clip up her fringe.hhahahahaha..........n mrs kow made such a big fuss on how cute we were........ omg..... wth. conclusion embarrasing. luckily i told salwin not to come.. phew.... well.. then wen i was happy happy oready change oready. skali kena stop sehh.. apa seh.. like got nobodys business. ask me go see her on monday. well, mi timetable was full lah.hahaha.. cannot see lah.. but i noe..... gosh how pple underestimate each other iss soo frustrating each time. n yeah derence sang me a song n he pujuk me.. i dunnoe for wat.. it was like molesting me lah.. i dunnoe if he found the material nice or wat but.. he realli rubbed me man.. hahahahaha.. but it felt good.. hahaha.. n he sang me a song. his own whiskers die!!!! remix of...... madonna - american pie.. soo funny. hahahaha soo cute lah he.. well yeah.. the thing is i dun deserve respect. i deserve to be hated.hope ur happy lah

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this song means alot to me thats y i love it..
hhahaha.. =P

n some silly fool u broke his arm... aww.....heres to u.

ok... i kinda got sacked.. somehow im kinda happy...someone jus called me very cute todai... i dunnoe how to react actually. i like... but i rarely get a cute comment. well yeah i soo dun wanna be a prefect. i jus wanna be a normal student. soo i can live mi life in secondary school in peace.. n jus concentrate on 1 thing. yes.. mi motto. oh well.. finally mi life wont be a living hell lah.. from that fucked up lady. hu oways stop me for no reason.. stupid......but it aint all that peaceful i mus say.. its like prison in school now.. soo many tests. soo many homework. damn it.. n during the free period . we cant go anywhere.
stupid mrs g.. sooo rigid.. dunnoe how to give way.. n the new vice - principal soo... mmm..kuku looking.. experienced mi foot. loook soo bodoh. n y that penguin still havent go away.. sian ahh.. look at her face everyday.finally the school have brains to bring hp. n other electronic items. the one hu banned was of course.. ahham.. soo bodoh i dun believe in others believe cause i am me.. they are apparently wiser. sooo hu cares man.. oh well i love choir.. this is the 1st time im saying that. it rox. hahahahhahaha.. hate the uniform though. mi father asked which hospital i come from.. hahahha.. stupid puffy sleeves. yux. stupid the lady says almas got nice figure.. hahahahahah...
flames to dust, lovers to frens, y do all good things come to an end.